Flying on trip back to guatemala …
Trying to stay focused on my mantra but my eyelids keep dropping over.
I hate the feeling of unfocused tiredness. It’s the worst.
It’s like being helpless, a prisoner of your mind.
I can’t help but think of this huge veggie salad I had yesterday.
I had just read about Gandhi’s diet.
How he had veggies cuz veggies gave him the most energy.
And how I had tons of energy after this salad yesterday. About 4 hours after I ate. Tons of energy.
I wish the urge to eat salads was stronger.
My growth point today will be to carefully try another salad, this time with more chicken so I stay full longer.
No longer do I force myself to have energy, or berate myself for being tired.
I need sleep. Probably more than you. I am okay with that.
But I still hate being tired. It’s my most common negative emotion. I suppose this means I have more to learn.
So today I will have a salad with chicken